Category Archives: We Don’t Talk About It

Sipping Whiskey Out The Bottle & Catching Feelings



Every carpet, every floor

Everywhere I look I fall…

As I rise up through each floor

Shit gets dark when you lose it all

I can hear it coming, I can hear the drumming…



The first time most of the world started paying attention to Naughty Boy was when he released that lalala number with Sam Smith on vocals. Of course Sam Smith would shortly make his own mark with “Stay With Me”, a number he has said to be about the morning after.

Yes after a crazy night under the influence or not, many make decisions without really thinking them through or how it will affect them in the long run… Sticking on what “Stay With Me” is about, or at least what I get from it… Some of us handle one night stands better than others… As some may cling on after one… Some wont even stay to cuddle… It’s strictly business… “No One’s Here To Sleep’, another Naughty Boy number, though this time he has Dan Smith, the frontman of British rock band BASTILLE on vocals… The song can easily be about a failed relationship and how often things end with one party stuck to deal with the puddle of badword the relationship has left them in whilst the other is inclined to quickly keep it moving as they float away…


You were always faster than me

I’ll never catch up with you…

Oh I can feel them coming for me…


On the flip side “No One’s Here To Sleep” could be exactly about just that… We each have our own journeys and caught up in our journeys and their successes we might look down on those who seem less successful in their journey, as if they’re in La La land, asleep… They need to wake up… Truth is, no one is here to sleep, everyone has their own purpose… In the bigger scheme, no one human is more important than the other, yes, it’s such a cliché but the biggest race is not against each other but against ourselves… us and ourselves…


Hit the ground and start runnin’

‘Round the street where you grew up

Make a sound, write a story you can tell

For us, for us and ourselves



Songs: Stay with Me by Sam Smith, No one’s Here To Sleep by Naughty Boy ft Dan Smith, Us & Ourselves by Morning Parade



Lips Like They Be Singing Sexed Up Strawberry Songs



Photo of my gran with some of her grandchildren and their friends. It was taken about 6 years before I was born

Kids want to be at the cutting edge of something new, they can praise and love icons that were made before they we born, yes, but being at the forefront of the making of an icon they can claim as their own is what they’re here for. Being at the cutting edge or birth of the next legend is what they live for and it is without a doubt that I say Lady Gaga is one of those legends this generation can claim as their own. With a string of hits to her name we can all debate which is and which isn’t her greatest or best song though I’ve always felt The Edge of Glory is one of her most honest numbers as it speaks of the very last moments of life.

The song lyrics are inspired or influenced by Lady Gaga’s grandfather’s death and the impact it had on her… Yes we all want to be at the forefront of something new, but what happens when we find ourselves on the midst of something not so new? Something that’s about to end…


I’m on the edge, of glory

And I’m hanging on a moment with you


As a baby I found a best friend in my grandmother, she had already been a grandmother to +17 others before me and time was catching up to her, but I didn’t know that… At least I didn’t want to…

As I grew older, like anyone else would, I ignored how I may not have her in my adult life… I had only known her for as many years as I had lived, she was still very young in my time with her as every moment grew special… It was only when she really fell ill and was taken to hospital that I had to face reality… still I refused, I refused to see her in the vulnerable state she was in during her last days… Hanging on ropes, hanging on hopes of her coming back home… Maybe it was selfish of me, yes, I did it ’cause I knew I wouldn’t be able to face the truth… the possibility of her not coming back home… It was only when she asked for me to come see her that suddenly I felt I could do it… that I could stand seeing her lie helplessly in that hospital bed… To share with her what may be her final moments… but it was a moment… 4 minutes too late…


Seven Billion Lies




Come as you are

As you were

As I want you to be

As a friend, as a friend

As an old enemy


Come as you are… how wonderful does that sound? how inviting? What a relief it is to know that we can come as we are, no need to change, no need to conform to pre assumed standards, it’s a promise of being accepted as we are… Something we want so much from others but fail to give… Yes, we wont admit it because we’re so darn good at convincing ourselves that we are fair people…


Take your time

Hurry up

Choice is yours

Don’t be late

Take a rest as a friend…


At a deeper look, “Come As You Are” by Nirvana lyrically demonstrates how fickle we as a people are… or have become… How we are turning into hypocrites but don’t see it… how we claim and preach one thing but practice another… How shallow we’ve become… How easily we compromise our morals, our standards… A wavering flame… We’re not sure about ourselves or what we believe in… One minute we have the greatest love for our friends, the next we’re curled up and claiming to have no “real” friends, even comedians make fun of how some girls date bad boys thinking they’ll help the bad boy “change for the better” only to dump the bad boy for reasons such as, “You’ve changed, you’re not the guy I fell in love with anymore…”

Sadly the “hypocriticism” (if I’m allowed to make that word up and use it) in the song gets real at the bridge when Kurt Cobain sings “And I swear that I don’t have a gun… No, I don’t have a gun…” Of course the world would tragically learn that he actually did have one a few years later after his suicide…

“There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much… I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general… Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess… I’m too much of an erratic, moody baby…” – Kurt Cobain in his suicide note


Satan Loves A Bomb Scare (Freedom Is The Rhythm)

Paranoia is in bloom
The PR Transmission will resume
They’ll try to push drugs that keep us all dumbed down
And hope that we will never see the truth around… – Muse

Music Smells Like Noise

“I’m in awe of the universe, but I don’t necessarily believe there’s an intelligence or agent behind it. I do have a passion for the visual in religious rituals, though, even though they may be completely empty and bereft of substance. The incense is powerful and provocative, whether Buddhist or Catholic.”- David Bowie


Find something to believe in and stick to it. I’m Kidding, question it til your last breath, at least that’s what I’ve been doing, (minus the last breath… I’m still breathing… I think), it’s what I see as the window to growth, the door to growth. In a strange way, I wouldn’t be fully living to that mantra if I didn’t question it. See where I’m going with this? Nowhere. Come along anyway.

Being a kid in a Christian/traditional, Zulu household, I was told, no, lets say I was taught to believe in God, simultaneously I…

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Kissed By God



The only thing I haven’t done yet is die

And it’s me and my plus one at the after life

Crowds are won and lost and won again but our hearts beat for the diehards -Fall Out Boy in Thriller


What makes us diehards? What leads to us being these high-spirited hungry enthusiasts? I say a lot of the time it’s seeing ourselves in something or someone, being able to relate but not only because we see ourselves in whoever or whatever but seeing something we feel we know. Something we’ve seen brings a sense of validity, we instantly feel comfortable enough to invest ourselves, our emotions, our spirits, our love and passion on the given subject. Giving such praise, idolizing a meer mortal is a danger not because it goes against the good book, but because of the mental happenings that take place when the receiver of all this love and passion, loses or outlives all that love and attention. So the story begins…


It’s a story we all have at the back of our minds, it will always ring a bell in our heads hence we will always be drawn to it, making the story ever relevant. It’s a story of a middle age successful man who isn’t necessarily happy with his life despite his fortune. Yea we’ve seen this in a variety of movies, music videos (Including the one I’m about to talk about) as well as sitcoms esp. Two And a Half Men… Well, maybe he wasn’t part of a big band but “Charlie Harper” is a middle-aged millionaire musician who isn’t sure what to do with his life as he drowns his emptiness with alcohol and “hookers”… of course we don’t really pay attention to that cos it’s a sitcom after all.

Turned and chased the dollar, But it broke his heart, So he stuck his middle finger, To the world– Kevin Rudolph in Let It Rock

Not many know how much of a Kurt Cobain fan I am, just to go off topic a bit, they say money can’t buy happiness but everyone wants to find this out themselves. sometimes happiness itself or what we see as happiness or yearn for in the depths of our desires isn’t at all what we hope… And after exerting our souls, our passion chasing that paper, chasing our dreams, when we finally get it… it’s not so shiny up close, in fact, it can be blinding in a sense that, one can’t see things getting any better. One feels the only thing left to see is the heart stopping mysteries of the afterlife, they give in.

Back to Kurt Cobain, if it weren’t for him and his band, God knows what I would’ve called this blog… I certainly don’t. What I also don’t know is where his music would be if he were still around.

“I’d rather burn out than fade away”- Kurt Cobain

Burn out he did, committing suicide after tasting global success for just a while, addressing his suicide letter to his childhood imaginary friend… unseen, a voice in his head.

All the voices in my mind, calling out across the line -Ed Sheeran in Bloodstream

Five minutes and nine seconds long, “Bloodstream” was written by Ed Sheeran along with Snow Patrol band members (Jonny McDaid & Gary Lightbody), remixed by English Drum and Bass band Rudimental. Along with it’s accompanying video this number is attention stealing and tells a story of a middle aged man who has outlived his glory days, a rockstar that has unfortunately faded away… though his fortune is still intact, the spotlight is clearly missed by the lonely aging rocker… Yes, we all just wanna be big rocksars… just imagine being on stage and taking in love from the audience for the first time at the height of your career… you’d never want to let that go. Once high on applause he is now low on life.

“All you do is you chase it. You chase that initial feeling, and you never get it back” – Jerry Sunorne about his heroine addiction in Things We Lost in the Fire


Headfirst Slide Into Umlazi Township On A Bad Bet

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Taking Las Vegas Home may have been about a lover or an ex lover who’s struggling to grasp the possibilities of his or her lover finding someone better than him or her, someone to have something “more” with, someone who’s gonna love their lover better than they ever did…

They don’t know if it’s possible since their love for the person was or is or seems so unrivaled… Trying hard, still, they can’t see why either of them should look elsewhere for what they already had…

Didn’t I take you to… higher places, you can’t reach without me?

But what if we took a darker approach to the situation, what if the heartbreaker is so twisted that they say such words not out of their great undying love for the person but as an attempt to manipulate their heartbroken lover into putting up with the toxic relationship… Trying to make them believe that they can’t get anything better than what they’re giving them… No one’s ever gonna love you more than I do… the words go… the song knows… the song goes…

It’s looking like a limb torn off

Or altogether just, taken apart

We’re reeling through an endless fall

We are the ever-living ghost of what once was

No One3

Once reworked by Cee Lo Green for his 3rd studio album conveniently titled Lady Killer, “No One’s Gonna Love You” was originally done by The Band Of Horses for their second album Cease To Begin.

Yes, before Eminem’s “Love The Way You Lie” or Rihanna’s “We Found Love” video, we had the “No One’s Gonna Love You” video accompanying Cee Lo Green’s rendition of the song. In a nutshell, all three videos are basically one and the same thing. Assuming you’ve seen at least one of the three, I don’t need to focus on the actual happenings of the video but the song itself…

Unfortunately most of us at some point in our lives find ourselves in a relationship where we have to deal with a heart that wasn’t broken by us… As we can all mull about the challenges that come with such a relationship, let’s rather attempt to delve deep into the mind of the person who perhaps is responsible for breaking the heart.

No One2

Getting into your first ever serious relationship, you often hope it will last forever, as you invest your all into the love, disappointment teaches you otherwise…

But someone

They could’ve warned you

When things start splitting at the seams and now

The whole thing’s tumbling down

After the first relationship, you go into the next relationship, aware of the disappointment that may follow, making you somewhat hold back a bit of yourself… In some cases, most of yourself… You become, the everliving ghost of what once was… No more bright eyes and a bushy tail…

No one’s gonna love you more than I do

Aware of what he/she has done, the heartbreaker feels that the ex lover is less likely to walk into another relationship as fearlessly and as wholly as they did with them… That no one, will ever get to see how much of a lover they once were, unbruised, uncurled… unbetrayed…

Or so they think

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Taking Las Vegas Home

those places

This song brings me so much quiet joy, it defeats me with happiness, it smothers me with wonder, it kills me with our truth. Defeated by our intentions, we curl up once more.

So many songs are about looking for love in all the wrong places… finding it in hopeless places, it doesn’t have to be a physical place but a state of mind we may or may not share.

So many people meet in loud places… parties… clubs… though the vibe seems to be the same in all or most of these places, the people aren’t always… Nor are their intentions…


I go to loud places

To search for someone, to be quiet with

Who will take me home

You go to loud place

To find someone who

Will take you higher than I took you


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Intentions were never the same, with a facade here and there, the relationship blossomed… with every second… minute… hour… days piling up, down comes the facade. Stranded in love all by herself, it’s clear that it wasn’t meant to be… but still, her heart clings to what she thought she had… what would’ve been…


I go to those places

Where we used to go

They seem so quiet now

I’m here, all alone

You go to new places

With I don’t know who

And I don’t know how

To follow you




We want it, we go out of our way for it, but how would we know where or when to search for it when we don’t really know where or when it was lost.

Was it ever there? Will it ever be?

They say the worst part of ending is starting again, but does it ever end?

Chasing an unknown high, we keep chasing… To start something that we hope will be better than the last, something that will get us higher than our last fix…


You’re in ecstasy, without me

When you come down

I won’t be around…


Her grip… she weakens…