We Do It In The Dark, With Smiles On Our Faces

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Back In high school I remember having people tell me that I had a boring life. Externally I was always settled and quiet. Internally I was always pacing to and foe exploring what was, what is… an endless world of possibilities.

I couldn’t feel the boredom I was then accused of, Yes I didn’t over indulge my young curious mind with alcohol and company but still, I had everything I needed. No one thing in life is the be all and end all of fun.

We look at what we have, grateful, yes, we are quick to feel sorry for whomever may appear to have less. Truth is, everything is subjective, what’s less for you may not necessarily be less for the next.

Tsotsi, a movie that earned South Africa it’s first ever Oscar Award. In the movie the main character (Tsotsi) has an encounter with a physically disabled drifter… Not convinced that the man is actually disabled but instead is posing as disabled to earn sympathy change from the commuters… After kicking over all his coins he (Tsotsi) asks the man to get up… Now Tsotsi couldn’t understand why someone without an ability to walk, without a home, without a family, without a job would have the will to live… “Just to feel the sun on the street”

 

Went down the hill

The other day

Soul got happy and stayed all day

 

Though back in the 1930s the technology and resources we have today weren’t available, iconic songs like “Trouble So Hard” were written… Originally sung by Vera Hall from as early as 1937 the song has been covered and reworked by a number of artists (most notably Paolo Nutini as well as Moby)… Evidently the song focuses on the troubles we all face as people but most importantly how no one else has a say as to whether another has the best life or if another’s life is worth living or not as our deepest purpose, our deepest joys along with our deepest troubles are known by no one else but us and ourselves…

 

Don’t nobody know my troubles but God

Don’t nobody know my troubles but God

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3 Day Quote Challenge Round 2! (Day 3)

Made it! Okay, almost… At least as soon as I click the publish button… Yeap David of Chape Personal Trainer  was kind enough to nominated me for the 3 day 3 quotes challenge and yea, today is the last day… Kinda sad… By the way, I’d like to thank David once more and yes I think his blog is pretty awesome, so go check it out! CHECK IT!

Challenge’s rules:

  1. Post three consecutive days.
  2. You can pick one or three quotes per day.
  3. Challenge three different bloggers per day.

We live in a time where time is money and everyone is using their time to make money… Chasing that dream and that billionaire status can sometimes consume us and who we are… We forget what’s important… And why we’re chasing these dreams in the 1st place… Today I’d like to share a quote I took from a song by The Kings of Leon titled “The Immortals”

“Spill out on the streets to start, ride away, find out what you are, face to face, Once you’ve had enough, carry on, don’t forget to love before you’re gone”

My nominees are:

Lisa

msbukky

Jules


3 Day Quote Challenge Round 2! (Day 2)

YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAA, it’s that time again, as you know, David of Chape Personal Trainer nominated me for the 3 day 3 quotes challenge. He is very  friendly and his blog is always worth a visit.

Challenge’s rules:

  1. Post three consecutive days.
  2. You can pick one or three quotes per day.
  3. Challenge three different bloggers per day.

It’s a Sunday, a day of rest, a day of worship… Yes not everyone is a believer and it’s no surprise considering how full of mystery the world is.

What is real and what isn’t? what’s true and what isn’t? We can debate that until we’re all blue in the face… What we all do know is that we all live, and we’ll all die.

“The best part of believe is the ‘lie'”- Fall Out Boy in a number from their Under The Cork Tree album

My nominees are:

Deb

Opher

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3 Day Quote Challenge Round 2! (Day 1)

Awesome. David of Chape Personal Trainer has nominated me for a challenge I really enjoy. I’d like to thank him for the nomination and yea, we’re a few weeks from trying to start or fulfil those new year’s resolutions and if being fit and healthy is one of those resolutions or if you just need to know how not to hurt yourself in the gym or need help with an injury Chape Personal Trainer is the place to go!

Challenge’s rules:

  1. Post three consecutive days.
  2. You can pick one or three quotes per day.
  3. Challenge three different bloggers per day.

 

Okay… I’ll try to make this as not awkward as possible… I really don’t know how to say it, so I’ll just say it… here goes;

Is it okay if I quote myself this time? Just this once? Will it be too weird? Okay.

 

A few years ago I was having a talk with a friend, she had passed out (fainted) earlier that day. She revealed that she had been trying out various (extreme) diets she also went on to tell me how insecure she was about her weight and how she knew what people thought of her…

It’s not just about our physical appearance, we try to fit in with the way we think, the way we speak and the things we have… We all have something, we all have someone. Unfortunately – fixated on what we think we need, we often overlook what we have.

To her I said

“The only people worth impressing are those that are already impressed”

 

 

My nominees are:

Alisha

Kally

Laura

 


Tastes Like Not Chicken

Colour, color, nationality, race, genre, black music, white music… So many boxes… We’re boxing ourselves, each other and everything around us. Yes, there is music we can each call our own, ancestral music that isn’t praised or produced in any other part of the world but our own… But like the words I write, you can’t put ownership on feelings… Listen…

Yes, we may all have a preference on the genres or the kind of music we mostly listen to, but how society is set up, there are cool genres and not so cool genres, some of us claim to only listen to a certain or a specific genre… I’m not one of those people because, yes, you’ve guessed it, I believe music is more than style, it is more than a tone, it is more than a melody, it is more than an instrument… Music is feeling, and whatever the genre or how much you don’t like the artist, if a song catches you at the right moment, you’re caught! Feelings everywhere… Going forward, whether you admit to feeling a song or not (assuming in your world it’s a style/genre or artist not generally considered as cool) is then your laundry to air.

Comedy movies are my favourite, they’ve always been my favourite though my most favourite movie is far from being a comedy…

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Starring Leleti Khumalo, Yesterday is without a doubt one of the best movies I’ve ever seen… Yes, it caught me, it pinned me down, I felt it…

The movie is basically about a wife/mother who learns that she’s HIV+ and the self-dialogue and struggles that follow.

Living at the village she stays with just her daughter as her husband works by the city as a Miner… She seems to be faithful, but we can’t say the same for her husband… He also turns out to be abusive as he beats her up when she tells him that she had just found out that she has the virus… Lonely and bruised she travels back home from the city… Time and sickness would soon relieve the husband from his denial and whisper the truth through weak, hard coughs that he perhaps did have the virus… and that he had passed it on to his wife…

 

Boys working on empty

Is that the kinda way to face the burning heat?

I just think about my baby

I’m so full of love I could barely eat

There’s nothing sweeter than my baby

I’d never want once from the cherry tree…

 

As his health gets worse, he finally returns to his wife and daughter… Some how, his wife finds it in herself to take care of him, and nurse him as she had to deal with suddenly being treated like an outsider by her stigma ruled neighbours… shunned by many she once knew as friends…

 

Boys, when my baby found me

I was three days on a drunken sin

I woke with her walls around me

Nothin’ in her room but an empty crib

And I was burning up a fever

I didn’t care much how long I lived

But I swear I thought I dreamed her

She never asked me once about the wrong I did

 

Driven by her wish to see her little daughter go to (her 1st day of) school she is in steady health, but tired of her nosey neighbours and how they were treating her and her husband for being HIV+ and the hospital not being able to accommodate her husband she builds a shack in solitude where she continues to nurse him as his health unfortunately gets worse…

 

My babe would never fret none

About what my hands and my body done

If the Lord don’t forgive me

I’d still have my baby and my babe would have me…

 

The movie is definitely about love, forgiveness and of course willpower… She had promised herself that she’d take her daughter to her 1st day of school… Then and only then will the virus be allowed to do as it pleases with her… The husband is as loving as can be towards his wife and daughter as his life slips away…

 

When my time comes around

Lay me gently in the cold dark Earth

No grave, can hold my body down

I’ll crawl home to her…

 

Song: Work Song by Hozier

 


My 1st Infinity Dreams Award!

Anand of blabberwockying! has nominated me for an Infinity Dreams Award! This is actually a good sign… It tells me that he doesn’t regret nominating me for all the other cool Awards. Anand is… well, let me not bore you about how cool he is because it’s gonna sound like I’m just saying it just for the sake of saying it but look, if you love life, if you love good vibes, if you like educating yourself and getting a bit of insight or views on either writing, astrology, religion and all the rest, you’re gonna love blabberwockying! and of course, you’ll love the guy behind it as well… oh yes, I also mean to thank him for this award, it means there’s hope for me ouchea!!!

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The Award Rules:

  1. Thank and follow the blog that nominated you.

2.  Tell us 11 facts about yourself.

3.   Answer the questions that were set for you to answer.

4.  Nominate 11 bloggers and set questions for them.

11 Facts About Myself

 

  1. I lied my way out of pre-school.
  2. I lied my way into my first job.
  3. I hate following trends, so I don’t.
  4. I love music… shocker.
  5. I can’t stop myself from writing, it’s an itch I can’t help but scratch.
  6. I recently discovered that maybe I’m a moody human being… yea
  7. Selflessness is one of the most important things to me.
  8. My mother doesn’t know about my interest in writing, she doesn’t even know that I have a blog.
  9. Though some may disagree, I’m very shy/reserved.
  10. I can only count up to 10.
  11. Okay, maybe I’ve attempted counting to up to a million but got stuck between 0and another number.

My Answers To Bohemian’s Questions

 

Do you enjoy the City or Country more

Country

The Movie or the Book

Movie

Home cooked meal or take out

FOOOOOOD

Which super villain would you choose to be?

Lord Voldemort… mostly because of the British accent… anyone villain with a British accent will do for me.

Love is…..

Free

How do you like to spend a rainy day?

Curled up with something good to watch

Can you share one quote or saying you love, that keeps you going in life?

PLEASE DON’T MAKE ME PICK

If you were mayor for the day, what three things would you change about your city?

I have days when I want to save the world… today isn’t one of them… sorry…

What’s the most anti-establishment thing you’ve ever done?

Gee… Thanks for making me feel like bubble-wrapped Mr Play-it-safe

What’s one favorite thing you do by yourself?

I love being by myself… Almost anything you can think of is my favourite thing to do by myself

Share one thing you didn’t understand about the world when you were a kid.

Digestion.

My Nominees Are!

stephellaneous

Chape

thebuddhasutra

Atomic Words

Spoken Like A True Nut

FrancisKarl

Must Be This Tall To Ride

HeartwordsForPoetry

 

Anand’s Questions To My Nominees:

  1. Who is your mentor or who inspires you the most?
  2. Who is your best friend?
  3. What is the role of gratitude in life, if any?
  4. If you could meet one person from any period in history (it may even be fictional), who would it be?
  5. What is the sweetest thing someone ever did for you?
  6. Which were the best years of your life – childhood, youth or whichever age you’re now?
  7. Do you suffer from any kind of phobia?
  8. What do you need to be happy?
  9. What is love?
  10. What is peace?
  11. Who are you?

P.S I didn’t cheat… Okay, I’m sorry, I’m a bad example, please don’t be like me 😦 Follow the rules.


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Us humans think we’re so smart and we are, just not as much as we’d like to think.

Animal behavior is alive and it’s not necessarily a bad thing, yes, why should it be a bad thing? Is it because It’s ANIMAL behavior and we’re so much better than animals? Why should we constantly put ourselves above other living creatures?

With our know-it-all tendencies, isn’t it interesting how it’s us who get to burn in hell? hear me out… If you’re a believer or not, can you imagine an animal burning in hell? Why? or Why not?

From where I’m standing, It’s hard to imagine an animal being punished on the other side for not following the rules… or something like that, yet in our different societies and religious groups we often claim those who differ or those who go “off track” will be damned to hell…

“Birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don’t speak bird”- Kurt Cobain

The truth sucks, truth being we’ll never get over ourselves…

It seems we’ll forever put ourselves above anything or anyone who wont talk back, a lot like how we can stare the hell out of someone who can’t see that we’re staring at them… Someone who won’t look back at us.

Generally most of us try to be sociable, we try to be polite to everyone but every now and again for one reason or another, making our way through the town, we may not have the energy to interact with someone we may know… Spotting them first, we look away, hoping they wont see or bother us, but how sure are we ever really are about them not seeing us first and looking away exactly as we just did?

Yes, we’re only fooling ourselves… Ostriches poking their heads into the ground… Think about it, how many times have you turned around to catch someone looking at you as they quickly look away… only it’s too late, but they do it anyway… a bad habit sunk in their nerves…

If you can’t see me, I can’t see you… A line I took from Courtney Barnett’s Dead Fox chorus… The song carries so much on it… It can be linked to so many social issues, one being; many of us won’t even go for a HIV test just because we’re scared of what may be the truth, if we don’t face the truth, the truth wont bother us… So we think…

The illness or virus is there just the same whether we know it or not, it’s time to break down the stigma… It’s time to bring up a HIV free generation…