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I’mma Make A Deal With The Bad Wolf So The Bad Wolf Won’t Bite No More

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They say it’s not about how you start but how you finish.

Yea, I know, it sounds so uplifting, doesn’t it? But I’d like to look at it from a slightly different perspective.

It doesn’t matter how you start because no one really cares when you’re just starting, what you’re starting or why you’re starting it… Like that energy drink advert goes, no one cares about your late nights, no one cares about your early mornings, no one cares why you run, until that final lap…

Well, to be honest, I can’t quite remember the advert word for word.

And yes, as much as I probably messed that advert quote up, I still think I’m smart.

Yea, we’re all certain that we have great minds, but to have a great mind you need to have a brain… A brain, another thing we’re all certain we have though we’ve never seen…

No photographic proof, nothing…

Personally, I sometimes shake my head very hard just to see if I can still feel my brain inside, I know, it sounds strange, but it works… come to think of it, If one day I tried shaking my head and couldn’t feel anything, I’d most probably lose it.

All I’d have left is my face… which would be hard to feel without the aid of my brain and that’s when I’d have no other choice but to jump off a bridge which come to NOT think of it (since at this point I don’t have a brain), would be hard to find without the aid of my… face and eyes…

Can’t Feel My Face is yet another love number by Canadian artist The Weeknd. I think we can all agree that like Neyo, The Weeknd has a “Michael Jackson” quality to his voice, but lets not dwell on that.

What made this track more than just a song about love and it’s pros and cons for me is it’s accompanying video. In the video we get to see The Weeknd doing his thing on stage. Problem is, no one is really enjoying his performance, aside from the most beautiful girl in the video of course… She seems to be very into it… In aw, she can’t take her eyes off of him as she smiles and dances along.

His performance is great from start to finish, but only the “beautiful” girl in the video appreciates it from start to finish, which is perhaps a message telling us that you see what you are… You become what you see… If you look into the darkness long enough, you become the darkness, if you are the good in the world, if you give off goodness, goodness is what you’ll see.

 

 

NOTE: When you start out and no one is impressed, you have everything to gain and nothing to lose, henceforth you are free to do you… Problem is, as soon as you gain everything, as soon as you get high on our love and attention you are doomed to the fire, the desire to continuously get high on our love and praise. But us humans being the fickle creatures we are, it’s only a matter of time before we stop feeding your desire as the fire swallows you whole.

In the Can’t Feel My Face video, almost simultaneously the crowd gets up and starts worshiping The Weeknd’s performance as he’s set ablaze… Now that he knows what it feels like to be glorified by a crowd of praise, he has an addiction, a hunger he never knew. Illuminated by the fire.

 

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The Pendulum: ADD Lovers

In my tender age of 21 I’ve learnt enough to know that this world will always give you love though the ‘love’ you get might not be what we’ve seen in Hollywood movies where a person A fall’s in love with person C and their bond fills the gap of B. Love is no Cinderella story it’s not simply ‘happily ever after’ in an optimistic light its more like ‘happily working it out ever after’.
Now question is when do we know we’ve found the one we can ‘happily’ work it out with ever after? I feel almost cliché for asking such an old and somewhat rhetorical question. But sometimes as humans we try so hard to find love even where it might not exist cause we’re scared of lonely. The idea of being stuck with all the materialistic success the world can provide and 29 cats as your family is quite scary. So we stick around even though we see that we are moving back forth like a pendulum hypnotized by the constant-stationary mobility.

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“I’m a sweet
Little Love Maker
Finding Time
To make my words better”

FKA Twigs sings of a situation where some humans find themselves in, a situation where we belittle ourselves just so we could satisfy those we love. Allowing ourselves to be somewhere we might not be exactly feeling loved emotionally but if our bodies can get that little attention during love-making then that’s enough while we work on our speech so the dear lover can notice us as more.

And if I move on, I admit you’re gone. And I ain’t ready. And I’ll hold steady. Yeah I’ll hold you in my arms…”

Sia speaks of the possibility of moving on even though you’re not ready but for one to even reach that stage it’s quite a mission, you find yourself stealing time through the eye of the needle cause letting go of the one who’s made you feel whole and wanted is a process which no human being is always ready to begin. Holding on hoping to make it whole and together through the fire but darling its the lover who might have struck the matches and they waiting on just seeing you burn not because they suddenly hate you but the two of you might not be the perfect match so they will let you go, on the condition that you leave with scars that will remain a reminder of where you’ve been.

“You’re younger than I am broken.
I dance feelings like they’re spoken.
So my conversation is not enough”

Sometimes lovers might not be old enough to understand what you’ve been through neither do they understand that time is no human’s friend. So we express ourselves in more ways than the verbal manner. A conflicted lover might even start body-cutting just to speak these feelings which aren’t spoken and that doesn’t mean one needs to be taken to for a mental check up it’s just that ‘conversation is not enough’ to express what’s inside.
‘I see a body that could move the hardest in the room”
Most people around are quick to judge and speak of attention seeking when they see troubled people who speak their emotional pain through self-harming. We move the hardest just so we could intoxicate ourselves so much that we become numb to the emotional aches.
‘This is how I show my love… Blame it on my ADD baby”
I don’t want to sound subjective to one side as if only one person in a relationship is always wrong and the other is always right and abused. Both might be troubled. Failing to show their love properly.
Masochists who will find pleasure in going through pain together- ‘But I will never ever leave until the walls are caving in’- not willing to exit until all is burnt to ashes but even through the ashes we hope of phoenix resurrection powers.

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Show your love the best you can. Don’t make anyone feel less for loving you.

Disclaimer : This article does not encourage self-harming of any sorts in the same breath neither does it judge it. We all go through pain and we deal with it differently.
I didn’t mean to sound all dark and sombre.

Words in inverted commas are quoted from a number of songs.
FKA Twigs- Pendulum
FKA Twigs- Video Girl
Sia- Eye Of The Needle
Rihanna- I Love The Way You Lie (Pt 2)
AWOLNATION- Sail

Thanks to Elihle Gwala for guest writing this one
Everything on this post > Courtesy of Elihle Gwala