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The Pendulum: ADD Lovers

In my tender age of 21 I’ve learnt enough to know that this world will always give you love though the ‘love’ you get might not be what we’ve seen in Hollywood movies where a person A fall’s in love with person C and their bond fills the gap of B. Love is no Cinderella story it’s not simply ‘happily ever after’ in an optimistic light its more like ‘happily working it out ever after’.
Now question is when do we know we’ve found the one we can ‘happily’ work it out with ever after? I feel almost cliché for asking such an old and somewhat rhetorical question. But sometimes as humans we try so hard to find love even where it might not exist cause we’re scared of lonely. The idea of being stuck with all the materialistic success the world can provide and 29 cats as your family is quite scary. So we stick around even though we see that we are moving back forth like a pendulum hypnotized by the constant-stationary mobility.


“I’m a sweet
Little Love Maker
Finding Time
To make my words better”

FKA Twigs sings of a situation where some humans find themselves in, a situation where we belittle ourselves just so we could satisfy those we love. Allowing ourselves to be somewhere we might not be exactly feeling loved emotionally but if our bodies can get that little attention during love-making then that’s enough while we work on our speech so the dear lover can notice us as more.

And if I move on, I admit you’re gone. And I ain’t ready. And I’ll hold steady. Yeah I’ll hold you in my arms…”

Sia speaks of the possibility of moving on even though you’re not ready but for one to even reach that stage it’s quite a mission, you find yourself stealing time through the eye of the needle cause letting go of the one who’s made you feel whole and wanted is a process which no human being is always ready to begin. Holding on hoping to make it whole and together through the fire but darling its the lover who might have struck the matches and they waiting on just seeing you burn not because they suddenly hate you but the two of you might not be the perfect match so they will let you go, on the condition that you leave with scars that will remain a reminder of where you’ve been.

“You’re younger than I am broken.
I dance feelings like they’re spoken.
So my conversation is not enough”

Sometimes lovers might not be old enough to understand what you’ve been through neither do they understand that time is no human’s friend. So we express ourselves in more ways than the verbal manner. A conflicted lover might even start body-cutting just to speak these feelings which aren’t spoken and that doesn’t mean one needs to be taken to for a mental check up it’s just that ‘conversation is not enough’ to express what’s inside.
‘I see a body that could move the hardest in the room”
Most people around are quick to judge and speak of attention seeking when they see troubled people who speak their emotional pain through self-harming. We move the hardest just so we could intoxicate ourselves so much that we become numb to the emotional aches.
‘This is how I show my love… Blame it on my ADD baby”
I don’t want to sound subjective to one side as if only one person in a relationship is always wrong and the other is always right and abused. Both might be troubled. Failing to show their love properly.
Masochists who will find pleasure in going through pain together- ‘But I will never ever leave until the walls are caving in’- not willing to exit until all is burnt to ashes but even through the ashes we hope of phoenix resurrection powers.


Show your love the best you can. Don’t make anyone feel less for loving you.

Disclaimer : This article does not encourage self-harming of any sorts in the same breath neither does it judge it. We all go through pain and we deal with it differently.
I didn’t mean to sound all dark and sombre.

Words in inverted commas are quoted from a number of songs.
FKA Twigs- Pendulum
FKA Twigs- Video Girl
Sia- Eye Of The Needle
Rihanna- I Love The Way You Lie (Pt 2)

Thanks to Elihle Gwala for guest writing this one
Everything on this post > Courtesy of Elihle Gwala

Another One Finds The Gut (Elastic Heart Video)

Another one bites the dust, never to be confused with lust, her love is so strong, her intuition is never wrong, her decision is never strong, defeated by the conflicting elements of what’s right or wrong, she puts it in a song, conflicted by what she thinks and what she feels, steadily driving a car without wheels, her heart brutally abandoned by a mind that starts to heal, her eyes peal, alone, her mind starts to deal, it’s an experience bound to start, no compromise, no bill. Let the story begin.


Accused of having a video that portrays pedophilia, Elastic Heart is without a doubt a master piece, head to toe, lyrically and vocally. These being qualities Sia never fails to spoil the listener with.

To an objective eye, the video may seem unsettling, after all, we’re looking at a shirtless man dancing with a little girl. Though with an artistic eye or perhaps a deeper look, the video is not a display of pedophilia but a more cultivated problem, something every human has to deal with in one way on another at some point, more often than seldom.

I’d like to start by giving the two characters in the video names, yes, we know the little girl is played by Maddie Ziegler and the man is played by Shia LaBeouf, but let’s make it interesting. See, as the human anatomy develops from birth to adulthood, it only makes sense that most if not all internal organs get bigger. Wait, no, trust me, I’m on to something here. The heart like other organs may gain size, but that is all it will ever gain, how hard, fast or slow it beats will never get better with experience or the challenges one goes through, once you’re fully grown, you can’t teach it any new tricks, it “loves” the same. On the contrary, the mind remains young, it never loses the ability to learn, to be more, it’s capacity is boundless, it has the ability to grow forever young. From that basis, lets call the young girl the brain and the fully grown man the heart.


You’ve figured out where I’m going with this, haven’t you? Well, as far as I can see, the Elastic Heart video is about that common, peace aiming yet draining conflict between mind and soul… brain and heart. They say the heart wants what it wants, the same could be said about the mind, though unlike the heart, the mind has the ability to put things into perspective, unlike the heart, the mind can escape from being imprisoned by love or unrealistic hopes and expectations that come with it. The mind knows when enough is enough, though the heart is not equipped with the ability to escape through the bars of an apparent hell.


Towards the end of the video, the mind jumps back in, into the arms of the heart, still at war with it, it pound the heart in a slow stabbing motion, the mind continues to lift both eyelids of the heart and pulls its ears, pleading, encouraging it to use it’s senses, trying to convince the heart, trying to make the heart see that this is not where it should be. The mind then once again tries to lead the heart out of the cage, out of the situation… to move on.la-et-ms-sia-video-shia-labeouf-elastic-heart-maddie-ziegler-20150107